I weighed myself and I've magically PUT ON 3.5 kilos OVERNIGHT! WTF! Probably from that fucking massive meal I ate last night, and my little binge. And because I fell asleep last night before I got on the exercise bike. I'm such a failure.
I'm going to have to fast for at least a week now, it will probably take that long to get this fat fat fat off my body. A liquid fast. I'm scared of getting caught by mum. If I say I'm feeling too sick to eat, she'll probably take me to the doctor. Not that he would know anything yet. I'm still within the 'healthy' BMI range (aka the fat range) and I haven't lost a lot of weight.
40 kilos 40 kilos 40 kilos
That is the beautiful number.
40 40 40 40 40
Short-term goal : 55 kilos. I WILL MAKE IT!
Help me help me help me
My stomach is rumbling tumbling hungry growling hurting wants food. But I don't want food and Ana certainly doesn't want food. Food is not allowed in us near us around us. Water and juice. Too many calories. Burn fat burn fat burn burn burn it off.
I feel so huge.
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