Oh my god, i am FAT FAT FAT, i feel HUGE!
Mum made a MASSIVE bowl of pasta with mushroom and onion AND GRALIC BREAD :( :( :( :(and sat with me until I ate it all... I feel like my stomach is about to blow up! Then I went to my room and was feeling depressed about eating so much... instead of cutting like I SHOULD have, I binged! 5 biscuits! FIVE!!! I AM A FAT BLOATED FAT FUCKING DISGUSTING FAT UGLY BITCH.
I am a fucking whale.
Mum's suspicious. She asked me "What did you eat at school today?", "Why don't you want cheese on your pasta?".
I'm going to buy Diet Pills tomorrow and caffeine pills.
I need to get cucumber, celery, apples. Sugar free chewing gum. Vitamin water with zero calories.
I tried to go for a run this afternoon but it was pouring rain and mum caught me on my way out and said I couldn't go running in the rain...
She would get suspicious if I went on the exercise bike in front of her. I'll have to do it later, when she's asleep.
I can only IMAGINE how many calories I consumed today, I'm absolutely disgusted. Horrified. YUCK YUCK YUCK I feel DIRTY inside. I wish wish WISH I could make myself purge. I just have no gag reflex. :(
No comments:
Post a Comment