For every 'bad', 'naughty', BAD BAD BAD thing I eat I get a cut. 3 cuts today - half a large Freddo Frog at recess and 2 mini 'Wagon Wheels' on the bus home.
BAD BAD BAD FAT SLUT FUCKING UGLY FAT DISGUSTING STUPID DUMB FUCK
I'm going to run for an hour then come home and ride the exercise bike for an hour to GET IT OUT OF ME, OFF ME, clean inside again.
I wish I could make myself vomit. It would be so much easier.
But on a good note, all I ate today was 12 cherries, one carrot, an apple and a 30cal yoghurt. That and whatever mum cooks for dinner... which I have to figure out a way of sneakily not eating. Hmm. She always makes me sit down and eat dinner with her and we only leave when the meal is finished. I think I'll have to learn to vomit... I'm not going to get thin eating MASSIVE dinners every night. Mum is a generous cook. Although sometimes I cook my own meals as I'm a vegetarian.
I AM BAD DISGUSTING FAT WOBBLY FAT HUGE BLUBBER UGLY STUPID STUPID STUPID DUMB UGLY GROSS FAT FAT FAT
I'll get it off. Then I'll be happy.
So...
This can be a place where I keep tally of my achievements in losing weight.
To start off (in kilograms):
Highest weight (HW): 65, BMI - 21.2
Lowest Weight (LW): 61, BMI - 19.9
Current Weight (CW): 61.5 - 20.1 (HUGE I know.)
Goal Weight (GW) 1: 55 - 18
GW2: 50 - 16.3
GW3: 45 - 14.7
Ultimate GW: 40 - 13.1
I am 175 cm high (5 foot 7, going on 5'8)
So I have 21.5 kilograms to go.
Wish me luck...
I'm going for a run. My stomach is rumbling but I'M NOT EATING.
I AM STRONG!
I don't NEED food inside me. I am CLEAN without it. Food makes me fat fat FAT FAT DISGUSTING UGLY FAT SLUT SKANK WOBBLY THIGHS LOVEHANDLES TUMMY ROLLS DOUBLE CHINS FAT!
Run run run run...
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