I don't care if it hurts



I want to have control


I want a perfect body


I want a perfect soul

Why can't I be everything you want me to be? Why can't I be who I want to be?
I just want to be pure; perfect. Bones are prettier than fat.
 
10cm cut along my right inner wrist.
Razor blade.
Bleed.
 
Love heart carved into my arm.
Bleed, blood, drip drip drip.
 
Bury me, bury me! I am finished with you!
 
Somebody kill me please! Somebody kill me, please! I'm on my knees, pretty pretty please, kill me! I want to die! Put a bullet in my head.
 
"I've been waiting


I've been waiting for this moment all my life

But it's not quite right



And this 'real'

It's impossible if possible

At who's blind word

So clear but so unheard"
 
Confusing thoughts and confusing people. If only they knew. If only.
Time to sleep.