update

hmm WELL!
I've got a boyfriend and he is just... wow
Just amazing. Simply and truly and deliciously amazing. Just wow.
He is 5 years older than me :S but i dunno, i don't notice it.
His atmosphere is so chilled and I love being around him
He makes me smile :)
Such a babe. And he smokes good bud and is a loner just like me
We both walk along is complete silence just in eachother's company
It's beautiful :)

I quit smoking weed err'day
But now I just smoke on social occasions... usually have a few every second day
S'all good!!!


I haven't been to school yet and it's friday of the 2nd week lol
Panic attacks/anxiety/fuck haha
I went to the swimming carnival yesterday
i dont feel like the girls like me
sigh


probs just being paranoid

ive been drawing heaps lately
its good for the soul

i miss the presence of gunja in my life

i miss my best friend
she moved like 6 hours away
fucking fucking fuck
to the capital city.
shes staying ther for at least a year
and then were leaving home and fucking shit up

holy fuck i miss that girl

oh my,.


makes my heart ache to think of her

im not a lesbian, i swear, she is just so precious to me and understands me perfectly and i need her in my life and i feel like a lost puppy at a loss for what to do with myself

drew this sick picture:

and started drawing this one:

i love this: (heeheehee)

I've maintained 61kg for a week or so now
(not good enough)
 i love being home alone yew

i love chillin loving life yew
ive been fighting off the sadness really well lately

im sick of life i want to die